A treat

Badou, I feel your euphoria

Happy Birthday to myself.

Cheers to myself. LOL

Thanks for all the greetings.

It's seriously more than I had last year LOL!

To

• Siti Asyllah / Shila

• Nwan Jeng

• Allister

• Luqman

• Ying Yin

• Helmy / Misaki

• Phua Ying Hwai

• Fong Hui Chi

• Arivintharan

• Regina

Thank you for the ultra cute scarf white teddy !!!! THE WHITE TEDDY!!!!! Well, I was kinda tricked into going to school.... Blew off some REALLY unnecessary steam on Shila... Sorry.....

Time for the gory details!

Yesterday, I suddenly received a call from NJ who inquired some information about fencing on Shila's behalf because she ran out of credit. Then I called Shila who then sounded very, very worried over something. She requested me to come to school tomorrow, when I had already made it clear I didn't want to. NJ called again later that night to persuade me to go, saying that what Shila is saying seems rather important. Worried, I went. I also went because I wanted to apologize to Ying Hwai for ignoring her the day before because I kept staring at the sky. I actually got the feeling of being flipped upside down when I stared long and hard while wondering how could Earth be round while everything just looks so... flat..

The next day, as promised, I went to school. They were worried I wouldn't show up but I did okay! I skipped a period of moral, hanged out with Shila in her class, trying to get her to talk but she was just hyper so I was rather irked. Complete contrast with how she was yesterday on the phone. I was thinking... "I skipped my morning sleep for this crap of animals as gifts? What the hell?". Before I entered Berserker mode, I returned to my class, accidentally shouting at her... It's just my tendency to raise my voice when I intend to make a point. Very bad habit. Anyway, I went back in and life continued in peace. No, actually it wasn't really peace because Add. Maths was screwing with my brains. I ranted a little to NJ. I should've noticed something amiss with her silence but somehow, I ignored it.

Fast forward to recess, Shila said something disturbing to me and I dashed at full speed to the library where I met Li Ginn who then went downstairs with me to Recess Revo. Strangely, NJ wasn't there. Instead, she was with Shila in front of 1E if I'm not mistaken. Assuming they were discussing upcoming fencing events, Li Ginn and I joined them after they begun to walk away. We called after them, which I now assume they intentionally ignored us, and headed to the canteen where Shila wanted to buy a bottle of water. Li Ginn and I waited while talking to Sulin and teasing Lucas of his interests at the same time. NJ told us to head off to Recess Revo first, which we did. By the time we reached, it was ending and we were only in time for the prayer session.We headed back to class before I was caught by a girl high on caffiene. I will not disclose what she said.

After recess, NJ and Shila were a no show. I accidentally spotted them walking in the corridors downstairs. Seeing Shila all cheerful and all made me pissed when I was worrying on what the heck happened to her yesterday. Really! She sounded seriously worried on the phone! Rage burst out of me and I went down to confront her. I did something seriously nasty... Screaming at her and all. You see, yesterday when she called, she told me to come to school. I was reluctant and told her I would come after school hours as I would be attending my club activities. She demanded my presence in the morning. But when I asked her, she told me that she would talk after school. Gosh, that expelled the lid of rage off me. I selfishly scolded her before storming off.

Naturally, it upsetted her. For me, it both upsetted and pissed me off. I was saying some pretty vulgar stuff about her, ask NJ for the gorier details. NJ returned to class and tried to talk some sense into me, you see. Sadly I was being a bitch. I tried to screw myself with Add. Maths. I failed. So I moved to writing so that I could clear my mind. It did help, a lot. While I was writing, I noticed NJ going out of class the minute the teacher left. She didn't return for a long time. When she came back, all she told me was that Shila is very depressed and Ying Hwai wouldn't be staying back. A clue there now. It raised m suspiscion this time round but I didn't stoke the fire.

Fast forwarded again towards the end of school. NJ suddenly asked me what "lavicious" meant. I simply answered "lavish, I guess". She was sleeping earlier so it caught me off guard when she asked. Another suspiscion point here but again, I ignored it. I seriously didn't feel like being suspiscios of a friend when I just got pissed at another one. The bell rang and a few minutes later, Shila dashed out of her class. NJ wanted to look at the presents someone who coincidentally shared the same birthday as I did so we lingered around. We went downstairs and I told NJ to head to the canteen first while I used the washroom. Okay, from the point forth, something is SERIOUSLY up. But I played on. NJ was standing there, waiting. And so, we headed to the canteen together.

She told me I got angry at Shila for nothing. I turned to look at her and she admitted this entire thing to be her plan from the start. As we got nearer to the canteen, she said that everyone was waiting. I turned my attention. I saw Shila and a few friends there. I tried to back away but NJ coaxed me on. I continued reluctantly, mainly because Shila was there and I no longer knew how to face her anymore. I was a bitch to her yet she still celebrated for me. I could've died from embaressment of that combined with the fact that there were people actually singing a birthday song for me. Something nostalgic, something I always sang for another person but never have anyone sing it for me. Ying Hwai, Misaki, Hui Chi, Regina, Ying Yin, Arivin, Luqman, Shark-boy? were there but the latter few only stuck aorund for few seconds. Not that I minded. I was just... kinda... bummed one way or another, on how my friends would celebrate the event for me. I never saw it coming. I could've cried, but I didn't. But I do remember grinning / smiling like a maniac. Ying Hwai, Shila and NJ got me to open the present as others left for club activities.

The bear is CUTE.
IT'S SOFT!
IT'S CUDDLY!
OHHHHH THE FLUFFINESS!!!!!!

(Behind is a present my mum got for me last year. Yeah, the toy's huge but DAMMIT THE BEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
The photo didn't turn out well... I suck in photography. Sorry. Kinda camwhored the bear in my room. Behind the bear is the wrapper. I did my magikz to make it stand up. Take that!

Camwhoring sessions resume... With Nendroid Kaito joining the fun!
See? EVERYBODY LOVES BLUE SCARVES!



A moment of affection in the Blue Scarf Brother / Sisterhood.

It's just Kaito singing again, don't mind him.

Later at night, I freakin skipped my Add. Maths tuition because it's my freakin birthday! My family and I went for a dinner at The Ship all the way in KL. KL's beautiful at night. Other than the bloody massage parlours that are worse than mushrooms after the rain would pounce on you to promote their services, everything's beautiful. Parked in Low Yatt and walked all the way out. The night scene is amusing.

We had dinner at The Ship, as mentioned. Few waiters were hot but sadly one of them took me as a kid. Probably my dressing though, lol. Today, I had my first escargot. Blehh don't wanna eat it ever again. We finished our dinner, chat for a little before having a short photography session. My brother ordered a flamming lamborghini. He loved his first try over two years ago at Bulldog, a cafe and pub. I will not speak of it as he does not like it. It's basically a chocolate already mixed with vodka and all in a cup. And then, you stack a few cups on it, as shown above, and then... Pour the alcohol and light it up! The thing is you must finish the drink as the flames ignite the alcohol on the cup. Oh, and again, it was that cute waiter. Seriously, if I was old enough, and pretty enough, I wound hit on him LOL. I had my ice cream dessert and we headed back home. And in an hours time, I'm back here, typing everything I remember in a short summary though many would disagree with me because in truth, even I think that this post is long.

An idea of what I was wearing.

Goodbye, sweet sixteen, though you weren't even sweet to begin with.
Hello, seventeen.
Hello SPM.
But still,
Fuck you,
SPM.

To Shila, I'm seriously sorry for shouting at you. I'm very sorry I threw a tantrum at you. I didn't mean to do it had I known the plan but then again, it wouldn't be good if I knew...I'm not saying it's good I screamed at you. I'm quite the worthless friend, I'm sorry. Even though you say you're okay, I know you're hurt a lot inside. I'm sorry..... If theres anything I can do to make up for it, please, do let me know...