Numb

Numb numb numb numb.

Smiling like a lifeless doll
I may seem but so,
one must think,
and figure,
that the doll
may never
ever move
again.

I quite understand pure extreme otaku now because I'm on the verge of joining them. No more real guys for me, just 2D is fine, even if I have to buy dakimura, figures, bedsheets or anything. Enough should be enough. I'm pretty much satisfied with what I feed my eyes with truth be told. Fangirling's my thing no matter how much everyone hates them.

I'll cry when for them they're hurt.
I'll mourn when they're dead.
I'll celebrate when it's their birthday.
I'll share treats with them on Valentine's Day.
I'll support any decision they make.
I'll hone my skills to make good fanart.
I'll train to write good scripts for them.
I'll practice my writing for them.
I'll download every single drama CD they're in.
I'll buy all the figures they were reincarnated to.
I'll download every episode or chapter of their series.
I'll listen to all their character CD's.
I'll do it.
I really will.

I'll freeze myself, there's nothing to move on. I've been on that spot all along, never even lifting a finger.

Oh damn, my life sucks.
Oh my, I'm lazier than a pig.
Oh gosh, the time's ticking.
Oh dear, I'm gone.