I confess to predicting my failure in Add Maths, Physics, Chemistry, History and lastly, life. I pretty much fail in being everything everyone expects me to be. I hang my head in shame as I continue to confess that I have chemistry tomorrow but nothing's in my head. I can't even write a proper chemical equation! I can't even calculate the moles for God's sake.
Moving on, I wonder and ponder on simple questions. Do I deserve the best? Do I deserve to be loved? Do I deserve the freedom I have now? Do I deserve to be pampered? Do I deserve to live? I'm a walking failure to myself. The epitome of fail = me. I can't do anything but fangirl and bitch about. I can't even speak proper English! Oh wow! EPIC FAIL.
I often get the feeling many dislike me. I won't deny that I am quite annoying and no one tells it to my face because they know I can't take it. Thanks for your consideration. Now, do I even deserve that consideration? Really, answer me honestly, please.
Sorry Jo, I know we talked about this before and I promised to be positive but it looks like I went back on my words now. I'm sorry but I just find it extremely difficult to ward off this feeling of being down. Looks like my will power against temptation and entertainment is ZERO.
A new day comes tomorrow but nothing is going to change that I failed. Sorry.
SANDRA CHIEW OOI MEI -_-, you kawan saya kan? I told you already right, your life is fine, if you wanna compare with many others, whom are REALLY fucked up, YOU ARE GOOD ALREADY. Appreciate urself okay? And if you appreciate me as a friend, don't be so down always, find something to do, motivate urself for a little, set a REAL goal for urself. Then you won't have much to think about. And I don't allow u to use such words for urself AGAIN. :( I'll be angry.
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